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A few months ago I noted that I was off to pursue a new career in the financial sector. After about 6+ months of struggling to find business, struggling to make a paycheck, struggling to make bills, I am leaving.

I gotta hand it to people who can afford to do it. I will credit those who have the personality and poise and a large network of friends and people to call on.  I however do not. Its a sad day for me to have to give up but I need to face reality. And the truth is, it just isn’t in the cards for me. I’m not a sales person and the job was mostly not what I wanted. I thought it could be, might be, might turn out to be. But it wasn’t. The truth of the matter, looking at my peers – I wouldn’t be able to do what I wanted, how I wanted, where I wanted.

I missed almost every single target and goal I set for myself. Repeatedly. And I’m a bit disappointed with it. I will say that I am very confident in the products and services I sold however few they were in number.

So over the past two months – this has been an ongoing affair – I’ve been pounding the street looking for work. I’ve had one interview for a position that was, in the long run, closed out for business reasons. Two other jobs I applied for were closed out for the same reasons. I’ve submitted so many resumes, my fingers hurt from all of the reformatting I’ve done on the resumes.

To say I’m depressed about it would be one thing. But I’ve looked all over for jobs in my prior career field. I’ve applied for 7 positions with my former employer who told me bluntly that I was more than welcome to come back any time – which was considered a rare event in the company given the fact that they re-hire very few numbers of former employees. But again, just as part of the reason I left, I got no response. This was part of my reason for leaving – a complete lack of communication in the hiring process with them. Prior to leaving, I posted for close to 20+ positions – of which I heard absolutely nothing back on.

I’ve been approached by a couple of insurance companies who “want to talk about opportunities” which means little more than more commissioned sales and nothing concrete. The problem with that is that I can’t guarantee it will make a car payment, rent, etc. I politely declined because sales is *not* my forte, at all.

Add on top of this the fact that my student loans have all kicked back in and are adding about $300 a month in expenses, I really can’t afford to be broke.

So I have a potential offer on the table I’ll find out more about tomorrow. I had applied for a position with a company doing tech work but they, like the other company I interviewed with, closed the position due to the economy – however they threw me a bone and right now I’m not seeing a lot of choices swimming in the toilet.

Job – a lot of traveling, home once or twice a month, a lot of driving. Any guesses as to what it might be?

My Dad will know.

My Uncle, (Dad’s brother), will know.

Look. It isn’t really what I’d call an ideal career choice. But given the fact that I enjoy being by myself for long periods of time. I like to travel and I don’t mind being away from home. I guess it wouldn’t be that horrible. I’m not making digs at the industry of those who drive. It just isn’t what I would consider my ideal career. I had all of these grandiose visions of a career in Internet technology and making a big, fat salary as a manager or executive – this is after I had to give up on being a lawyer. Of course, this doesn’t mean the vision is dead. Just a little further away and a little less practical.

One downside: I’ll have to be gone for 1 1/2 months before I can get back to see Samantha, the dog. Then I have to figure out what I can do to get her to come along with me. If I do this, then I’ll just probably give up my place here and be a gypsy for a spell while I pay down my debts which are still growing each day.

Doh!